Miss you my dear Dad

    I lost my dad two years back, and that's when I realized that I failed to express him how much I love him and how much he meant to me. My dad was a really cool person, he had no bad habits.  He always tried to deal with any issues smoothly.

My dad was an awesome human being.  I love you, daddy.  I miss you very very badly.  You are the one who taught me about life.  You are the one who taught me how to live life happily even in the midst of too many problems. You didn't get a chance to live a lavish life.  You faced many failures in your life, but you never failed to try again.  You taught me how to overcome failures.

    When all our neighbors warned you from sending me to a college, you just ignored them and got my admission in an engineering college.  You always tried to give the best to me and sister, dad.  There are several times that I hurt you, dad, fought with you and even shouted at you for petty issues.  Though I had apologized, it hurts me now when you are not with me anymore.  I love you soooo much dad.  You are an awesome dad.  You taught me to forgive, love and care for people who even hurt us.  I always admire you, dad and I am sorry for times that I hurt you, dad.  You have always inspired me, with the ways you help people if someone approaches you for help.

     When you had left us, it's like, I have a lot of words left unspoken with you Dad, a lot left.  Dad, I believe that we will meet one day in the kingdom of God when it's time.  I just wanted to write this because I wanted to let my friends and people who read this to know that we cannot tell our loved ones how much we love them after they leave us, or ask for forgiveness for times we hurt them and we never know the last time we meet someone.  Life is a long journey as few sayings state, but I would say life is so short to have anger, jealousy or hatred towards someone.  Let us all live a happy and peaceful life, expressing our love to parents, family, friends, relatives, and care as much as possible.  We may not get a second chance to let them know.  Love you all.  God be with all of us.

I am Engaged

     Finally!!! I found my man (The man to support me always, to lift me when I fall, to console me when I am lost etc etc). I was praying God to bring my man to me at the right time and thus got engaged to Alben Godlin at God's own time (Jan 17, 2013). It is really so late to post this, but I thought this would be the right time. Though it was something very unexpected to me at that time, God has done everything right at His own time.

     I really have no words to thank God for all His Blessings. For the first time, I'm searching for the right words to write a blog post. Did I forget all those words that I knew :D ? Hope this is gonna be the shortest blog post of mine. Everything seemed to be a dream, I thought I was dreaming the whole day of our engagement. Its almost an year now and we are gonna be one soul within a couple of months on December 23rd, 2013. I pray God to set everything right at His own time.

     I have just started to learn about my life partner, so....... I will be able to tell you about him, only in some other post, some other time. All that I can tell you about him now is that He is such a nice guy with all good qualities(kinda person whom every woman keeps longing for) and he is God's greatest Blessing to me(much more than I deserve). I believe this explains everything about him. Will be back soon with another post.

My College Days

     Immediately after completing my higher secondary education, I joined as a Student in the English Literature department of Women's College. It was really odd to me in the beginning, because I had been a co-education student until those days. As days passed on, I liked the way things are in that College. After two months, we had an UGC Sponsored Trekking program. I was very happy about it and we went to Pollachi, Udumalpet region. I really enjoyed the most on those ten days with all my women colleagues. Meanwhile I had applied for engineering counselling too, so after a period of two and a half months, I had to leave my hostel cum college life in Women's college to join my Engineering College.

     My very first Engineering Class was Computer Practicals Lab, which I hate the most(not now) just because I had very little knowledge about Computers at that time. I didn't know that it was just a beginning of my dealings with a Computer. I was a weak student in Fundamentals of Computing and Programming(just in the beginning). Then we had no time to have fun, always we were busy with Assignments, Graphics Sheets, Weekly(Daily) Tests, Internal Exams, etc etc. I was a hosteler throughout my college life and even after that(till now).

     Within a period of three months, first semester exams came and we all passed on to the second semester. Nothing special to say about those semesters because we had very little fun. All those four years were just a combination of exams, exams and exams.

     Though it was so tough in the beginning, as days and months rolled on, I learned to deal with those exams. The only interesting things I had in our college are the chatting with friends during break time (all interactions with my colleagues during my college days), three Industrial Visits and the Association Days. To say about IV, we had to convince staffs, HOD and chairman, everyone at the same time, or everything would be a flop. We had to face many challenges to get permission from College to go on an IV, but that was also fun(only when we think about it now).

     Though nothing happened so interestingly in our college, every day was special to me. I have very good moments to cherish & remember about my college life. I wanna thank all my colleagues for giving me those evergreen memories. Good or Bad... Everyone of you taught me so many things in life. I really miss all of you my dear friends. I had a few staffs who supported us throughout our college days, either it is for IV, Association Days or for Exams.

     I wanna thank all my Staffs who taught me, guided me and supported me throughout my college days. Thus Four long years went so fast like four long months which just had 8 semester exams, 8 results, 7 Semester Practicals(Viva Voce) and the final Project Review. I would be so happy, if ever, I would get a chance to go back to our college and see all of you. I know such things are impossible, so I just pray God to give all success, happiness, prosperity and good health to all of you my dear friends.

I just wanna recall the poem that I posted long back under the topic: College Days

Just like that, my college days were over and now I am gonna enter the next chapter of my life(family life).
See you all again with another post very soon...

School Days

     I'm back again after a long time... eeeeeeee...

     After my LKG, I joined my own school, Kings Matric School. It was run by my parents and I studied in my school from UKG to the mid of Std X. Since, it was our school, no teachers dared to beat me. he he.. I never had the habit of studying for long hours. Right from the lower classes, I always wrote everything on my own whether it is right or wrong. May be, during my childhood I listened to the teachers while in class..I don't know. :P I lost the habit of listening to teachers after school. I study, but do not memorize anything. It is not like, I haven't tried to memorize the subjects, the fact is : I really can't memorize even a single line. It is really very hard for me to by-heart the question and answers, while I was left with no option when it comes to poems in English and Tamil. I do not have much interesting happenings to share, still I will try to share a few happenings.

     Since there were very less number of students in our school, all students had to participate in all events held, whether it is on Sports Day or Annual Day. And you know what, the funniest thing was: I had won second place in running competition. Please don't ask me how many students ran for the race.. he he... :P I participated in dance, drama and other stuffs.

     During one of the annual days, I took the role of Kannagi (from the tamil novel Silapathikaaram) in a drama. My teachers forgot to fix a long hair wig, so the Kannagi became the modern trendy Kannagi with bob cut hair. I just have one more incident to share, and that is another drama, the story of Dhushyanth and Shakunthala. Any guesses on my role in the drama? he he.... The role of Dhushyanth himself.. Hope that was my last drama, in which I played the role of a King. I do not remember anything properly. The funniest part of this role was, I was given a duplicate moustache. Unfortunately, I did not have a mirror to look and fix my moustache properly, so I fixed it in a slanding position, so the mighty King Dhushyanth became a comedy King with a slanting moustache.. he he...

     I had to shift to another school after my tenth standard. The new school's atmosphere was entirely new and different to me from my old school. The teachers were very strict. Every teacher came to the classroom with a cane. I remember the classes of Chemistry Sir and Physics Ma'am.

     Somehow, I managed to mingle with all friends in my new school and successfully completed my school days there. To say something funny there, I won first and second prizes for discus throw and shot put respectively. I say it as a funny stuff because that was the first time, I took those stuffs(discus and shot put) in my hand. I'm an average throw ball player (play only on Sports Days just for the sake of my Fire Opal team). I really miss those beautiful days, and I miss you all my dear friends. Now all of them are busy with their lives, a few got married and are happy with their kids and family, no time to contact each other, and this is how our life goes on with new friends, new job, new environment etc etc... Now, I take this opportunity to thank and wish all my Teachers and school friends for giving me those wonderful days(school days).

Strange Life !!!

Sometimes my days go well and good, but sometimes, days are very strange. I sit and feel for no reason. Too many stupid questions arise in me. Whom shall I ask for the answers??? Noone for sure.....because even I'm not sure about those questions.
Nothing interesting to post this time. Have a lot to post, but this may not be the right time to post it here, may be some days in future, I can bring it all in words into my stupid blog.. He he...

Sometimes.... I don't know whether I'm happy or sad. Sometimes I don't know whats my life is all upto? A blank feeling that covers me up. Not knowing what to do, not knowing where to go, I end my day doing nothing. Am I confusing you people....
Thats what is the real reason for all these...
I'm confused... Am I happy or sad??
I'm confused...
But believing that I'm happpppppppyyyyyy....
eeeeee... Yes.... Yahoooooooooo............ I'm happy.... ;)

Fed Up !!!

Hello Everyone! I wanted to post this poem a few days ago, but I didn't find much time, so posting it now. This is a poem written by someone called Nicolle and I liked these lines, so I just wanna share it in my blog.;)

Do you ever get that feeling
When you just can't carry on
And you really don't remember
The good reasons why you should.
All you want to do now
Is simply give up
And you're asking the question
Why do I bother?

Life is getting you down
And you don't know what to do
Coz right now you're feeling sad
And there is nobody to turn to.
You're sat right there surrounded
Surrounded by people that love you
But no matter how hard you try
The words just won't come out
You don't know how to explain
And you're scared they won't understand
Day by day you sit there
A fake smile upon your face
And no one ever notices
And you feel like a nothing
So you ask yourself again
Why do I bother?

And you smile and pretend
While inside you are dying
and as much as you love them
And as much as they love you
You know it will never change
Your smile can never fade.

by Nicolle

My Fantasy Day Dream !!!

     Hi ! My Dear Friends !!! This is the first time, I try to post one of my day dreams. It is not just a day dream, it can be said as my expectations on my next birth(if there is any) too. I know this is quite a foolish post, but I love such fantasy imaginations. Before I commence, I apologize for gonna waste up your time with all the stupid things that I'm gonna post below and also for the number of images that I'm going to include in this post. As I said, anyone who read this post may think me as a Stupid, Fool, Idiot or whatever but this is my fantasy dream. I always had a fascination towards Cartoon and Animation World. That may be the reason for having such a fantasy dream. He he...These are just my own imagination.

     I tried to make out a story from my dream of becoming a White dove in the next birth and so this is the story of a white dove. I wish to visit world (if there is a necessity) again, only as a White Dove. I prefer to be born as a White Dove because White Doves are meant for peace. I also have heard that, when the partner of a white dove dies, the other dove suicides by falling from a height or mourns till it dies too. This may be a myth but I liked it. I have heard this too that the other alive Dove would not suicide, it just sits near the body of the dead partner until it dies because of hunger, grief and bereavement. Now.. here we begin... Set, Ready & Goooo.....

     One fine day, the eggs laid by a mother white dove hatched into young little white doves. Those little ones included (my hero)hero white dove too (To..to..toing.... To..to..toing...... - background music). His little eyes blinked in response to the ray of sunlight that peeped into the nest. (Am I imagining too much?? he he.... its ok)

Slowly and very slowly, the hero opened his eyes and tried to get up, but the poor little champ couldn't get up because he was so weak and it was his first day of life in this world. Second day came, and the little hero tried to peep out of the little nest sitting beneath his mom. He saw the world around from the high branches of the tree and got frightened.. (Paavam....)

     Five days passed and the hero started growing and growing. He played with his siblings, and sometimes he fought with his siblings too. The (my naughty little hero) hero is just five days old now.

     Somewhere in the same forest, another mother white dove was incubating her eggs to hatch. Do you know who is gonna enter this world????? He he.. (assumption - its me again to this world of fantasy....)The Female White Dove of our story... Yahoooooo.........
Now its time for the heroine dove to peep out of the little eggs............

     Can we name the male hero bird and female heroine bird?? The male white dove will be addressed as Jikko and female white little dove as Mikko. (My "Jodi Pura")Jikko grew a little more, his mother taught him to fly. Jikko flew round and round the forest and he came to the tree in which Mikko has just hatched into a small white dove and he heard her sound resting outside her home(NEST).. he he..Day 1.... Jikko listening to Mikko's sound

     Mikko's mom came to the nest and Jikko got frightened and he flew away to his nest. Then he visited the tree next to Mikko's nest everyday. He was expecting her to come out of the nest very soon. They had a telepathic conversation and they knew that they were born to live together. he he.. (I'm imagining too much, right? what to do?? I told ... it is my fantasy dream.. he he. .. sooo.. It is definitely full of my imaginations)
Jikko waited for days to see Mikko......Day 2

Day 3(OMG: Jikko Became Lean)

Day 4.........Gloomy Jikko

Day 5............Lonely Jikko dove...

Day 6.........Sad Jikko...

Day 7.......Sadder Jikko......

Day 8.......Saddest Jikko...

     One fine morning, Mikko's parents took her out to teach her to fly, she also learned to fly and flew here and there. Mikko was so excited that she learned to fly. By the mean time, Mikko's parents saw Jikko looking at her sitting on a tree nearby. Mikko's parents talked to him and then both their Parents met each other. Meanwhile, Mikko's and Jikko's eyes met and they fell deeply in love.. he he.. Then their parents became (Sammanthies) in-laws and Jikko and Mikko got married and they were sooooo happy...

     Jikko and Mikko had soo much affection on each other, they loved and cared for each other so much.

They never had any serious fights, but they put some (chella chandai) lovely fights now and then, and they sit without facing each other for sometime.

They remain silent for almost an hour and not more than that, because they knew that they cannot keep themselves from talking to each other.

End of their fights will be like, they look each other accidentally, they smile, they talk, they love and they fly together.. he he...
Their Life was going so well and good until that day...

     Like every story, a tragedy happened in the life of Jikko and Mikko also. Normally Ladies have a lot of stupid wishes. Likewise, once Mikko expressed her wish to see the city nearby from a distance. Jikko couldn't resist his beloved (Jodi Pura's) wife's wish. So they both started their travel to the nearby city. Days passed, they flew and flew. Actually they were living deep inside the forest where no human beings can enter....As they were nearing the city, Mikko saw some grains on the floor and it flew to it and started eating and the moment it tried to fly again, it got trapped in the net that was already laid by a hunter. Seeing this, Jikko got shattered and he voluntarily put himself into the net and got caught, just because he cannot leave his dearest wife alone, even if it is to the worst places or even if it is during the worst circumstances.

     The hunter felt soo happy on seeing two doves while he expected only one to get trapped. As Jikko and Mikko were trapped by the hunter near the city, he carried them to the City Dove Shelter. There, Jikko and Mikko were caged separately. Both the doves felt very very sad and few days passed, finally one day both Jikko and Mikko were caged together.

     They were not able to celebrate this happiness, because they were not aware of the next disaster that is awaiting them.

     They were shifted from one cage to another everytime and they were kept in different places.

     They seemed sooo terrified. Finally the cage that held both of them was placed in the middle of a beautiful garden.

     Jikko and Mikko saw a crowd of people coming towards them, fear in their mind arose, then a few series of ceremonies were held beside them. Jikko and Mikko were taken out of the cage and were given to a beautiful newly married couple. The Worst thing was, a ribbon was tied to both their legs, so that they cannot fly without the new couple's permission.

     Later, both Jikko and Mikko were untied, but still the newly wedded couples didn't free the doves from their hands.

Finally, the best time came. The new couple flew both the white doves. Thats the minute, Jikko and Mikko flew as quickly as possible to their sweet home in the dense forest. They went back to their beautiful dense forest.

     Mikko promised Jikko, not to come with any other stupid wishes again. Both cute white doves decided "Never... ever... to leave their sweet forest." Jikko lived for Mikko and Mikko lived for Jikko as the most lovely and cute couple ever. he he...

May be..after a few years both Jikko and Mikko left earth. Oh ya...they(their souls) were on the way to heaven. They left earth together too :)

Thats the end of my crazy story. The above is my wish for my next birth.. My fantasy dream !!! Sorry for the most stupid post ever.. eeeeee